I spent that New Year in Toronto, Canada. We drove up with the young adult ministry from my church. It took about 18 hours for us to arrive at the Heavy Reign Conference. This was my first time leaving the country. I was both excited and anxious. I did not know what to expect, but I heard that some of the top speakers in the healing and prophetic culture were slated to speak that weekend. Hundreds of people lined up at the door waiting to enter the sanctuary.
This was not like a big televangelist conference that you would see on T.V., but it was an experience that I will never forget. I watched as miracles, signs, and wonders took place right in front of my eyes. Up until that point in my walk with God, I had never experienced that type of supernatural activity. On the final night, the speaker asked if anyone in the audience wanted to receive an infilling of the Holy Spirit. I went up to the altar to have an intimate moment with The Lord. I’d gone up for an altar call on many occasions, but this time something different happened. My body started to shake and I began to gag and choke with loss of breath. The altar workers began to surround me and pray for me intensely. I began to panic and onlookers began to notice.
The speaker got off the stage, came over to me and asked, “Is there anyone that you’re holding onto or have not forgiven?” I was not ready for that question but I knew the answer to it. I replied, “My dad.” I could feel my chest burning and eyes began to overflow with tears as pain radiated through my body. The speaker said, “You’ve got to forgive your dad in order to be free. Your dad doesn’t have the tools.”
I stared in his eyes in total shock and awe! How did he know? I didn’t tell him about the neglect and years of promises unfulfilled. I didn’t mention all the missed events and long nights waiting by the window for his arrival that ended in no-shows and disappointments. How did he know about my inner battle that I had been losing for my entire life?
The Spirit told him so. It was in that moment that I realized that I was enslaved to unforgiveness and hurt. I was an adult, but the hurts from my childhood were still fresh.
My relationship with my earthly father shaped my relationship with my heavenly Father. Scripture says in John 14:23, “Jesus replied, ‘Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them.'” The key part of the verse that rocked my entire being was, “My Father will love them.” I could not understand God’s love as a Father because I did not have my earthly father’s love. Expressing and receiving love was a challenge for me. This was a big issue that revealed itself in all of my relationships. I came to the conclusion that healing would have to happen in order for me to experience total freedom in this area of my life. It was that night in Canada that I began to let my father go, through the process of forgiveness.
It was four years later when I came face to face with my father and forgave him. It was one of the toughest moments in my life. We were in my van and I looked over at him and said, “I forgive you,” and he just nodded his head and said, “Thank you.” Forgiveness is one of the most powerful acts that we can display in the world. It gives both parties an opportunity to experience God’s freedom.
So many of us are struggling to see God as our heavenly Father because of the relationships that failed with our earthly fathers. It was through the unselfish acts of Jesus Christ that we are first introduced to the true work of forgiveness. Jesus offers us this freedom through the blood that He shed. It’s not easy, but it’s worth it.
Don’t allow the hardships and hurts of the old wounds to create a prison that keeps you bound to your trauma. Let go of the people that you have not forgiven and experience that freedom that God has for you. You won’t regret it.
Rob is a member of TOU, The One University, that walks students through a process of healing and learning how to date God’s way. It prepares members for marriage by first teaching them to become the one — before finding the one. For more information, please contact email@example.com.
People spend their entire life trying to answer two very important questions: who am I, and why am I here? Well for starters, I am Rob “B.F.r.e.e.” Badgett. My name is an acronym for Be Filled Revived Empowered Every day. I am an artist, author, and speaker. I believe that God placed me here to create content that provokes change and empowers my audience to optimize every opportunity. By doing this, they are able to push past personal barriers and offsets in order to arrive at the quality of life they desire and deserve. My work provides knowledge and wisdom on how to access truth that revives, empowers, and frees the heart, mind, soul, and spirit! God has given me a gift to write, create, and speak. These gifts have afforded me the opportunity to write albums, curriculums, and my first book “His Love Letters For Her." My ability to speak and perform has led to many stages and platforms in the U.S. I believe that people are the world’s greatest asset and each day, we are given an opportunity to share love and serve others. When I’m not out attempting to change the world I’m at home serving as a dad to three beautiful children.